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Addiction, Cancer, Life & Death By Joe S. Thomas
*** I had one of my spastic, wake-up abruptly, panic moments the other day and something’s been on my mind since… It’s been hanging over me like a cloud that I can’t seem to shake… It’s been with me for a while honestly… There have been many crises within the crisis that is often what… Continue reading
death, Depression, Family, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthaddiction, anger, Cancer, death, Depression, Empathy, Family, feelings, guilt, insomnia, Life, Mental Health, pain, pain pills, rage, reaching out, Sympathy -
Dangerous Fairy Tales By Joe S. Thomas
*** Awakened by a loud thunderstorm this evening and can’t get back to sleep… Once awake, I can never just go back to sleep… I’m unable or perhaps unwilling to finish the third part of the blog posts I’ve started regarding the life altering events that happened to me back in August of 2018 due… Continue reading
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It Never Seems To Stop (Reliving Trauma) Part 2 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Before I go into the details of the mess from which I’m still attempting to rebuild my life, there’s something I feel I must say… I will never, ever trust a cop, ever… If my life and times have taught me one fact it’s that almost all cops are true liars and it’s not… Continue reading
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It Never Seems To Stop (Reliving Trauma) Part 1 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Tonight I found myself jerked awake by something… I can’t really tell you what, but it happens sometimes… I go from what seems like a dead sleep to being jerked awake by some sort of muscle twitching episode that leaves me wide awake and a bit frazzled mentally… Anyway, that’s what’s going on tonight… … Continue reading
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Tailor Made Pain and Hurt By Joe S. Thomas
*** Today I had a feeling that for some reason I really needed to reach out to my ex fiance’ and share with her a photo of my daughter’s new son… She’s always loved children and never had any of her own… We were together for over eleven years for those who aren’t familiar… Though… Continue reading
counterculture, death, Depression, disability, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, Neurodivergence, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthblame, Cancer, death, decisions, defeated, Depression, Empathy, ex’s, feelings, forgiveness, hurt, Life, lifetime, lonliness, love, pain, questioning, relationships, Sympathy, Time, unwanted, wasted time -
Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Agoraphobia Part 2 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Continued-After many attempts and many hundreds of dollars lost, I finally made the emergency room doctors understand that I was having a legitimate problem and that I wasn’t faking for some sort of attention or wasn’t a drug seeker… At the time I didn’t know what a drug seeker even happened to be… This… Continue reading
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Anxiety/Panic Attacks/Agoraphobia Part 1 By Joe S. Thomas
Once again, tonight is a night that the insomnia has won out… It’s rare for me to sleep past 3 A.M. anymore… Here lately, 1:30 A.M… Whatever… Tonight, after listening to some of my 7” records and not really feeling like working in the poetry book I’ve been working on, I decided to watch a… Continue reading
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First Time Drinkers By Joe S. Thomas
*** On the days that I really fight the depression that often overwhelms me I find myself thinking a lot about when I started drinking and drugging, why I did so and how it has affected my life… I’m still no goody 2 shoes and I’m not cool with anyone telling me how to live… Continue reading
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Questions Raised By Joe S. Thomas
*** I received and started reading a new book today and like good books should do, this one has me thinking and questioning certain things… The book is volume 1 of 3 volumes called Black Heart Fades Blue By Jerry A. Lang, the singer for the Portland, Oregon punk band Poison Idea… The first volume,… Continue reading