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Addiction, Cancer, Life & Death By Joe S. Thomas
*** I had one of my spastic, wake-up abruptly, panic moments the other day and something’s been on my mind since… It’s been hanging over me like a cloud that I can’t seem to shake… It’s been with me for a while honestly… There have been many crises within the crisis that is often what… Continue reading
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Dangerous Fairy Tales By Joe S. Thomas
*** Awakened by a loud thunderstorm this evening and can’t get back to sleep… Once awake, I can never just go back to sleep… I’m unable or perhaps unwilling to finish the third part of the blog posts I’ve started regarding the life altering events that happened to me back in August of 2018 due… Continue reading
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Tailor Made Pain and Hurt By Joe S. Thomas
*** Today I had a feeling that for some reason I really needed to reach out to my ex fiance’ and share with her a photo of my daughter’s new son… She’s always loved children and never had any of her own… We were together for over eleven years for those who aren’t familiar… Though… Continue reading
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Into the Void By Joe S. Thomas
*** It made me sick when I heard those words come out of his mouth… The words my sister’s widower spoke to the hideous thing still cuddled up nice and warm in the exact spot my sister took her last breath and passed over into death and whatever that entails… I love you… These were… Continue reading
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Reading “Molly” By Joe S. Thomas
*** I’m reading a book that’s breaking my heart… It’s also making me relate wholeheartedly to a beautiful person that chose to take her life… The book is : Molly. It was written by her husband Blake Butler… My heart does go out to him, yet my heart goes out even more so to Molly… Continue reading
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Some Thoughts On My Family By Joe S. Thomas
*** I can honestly say I never liked most of my family… Or perhaps I should say I never liked being around most my family… Immediate and extended… I mean I loved them from a distance, but couldn’t take the close proximity… Back when I was a child, somewhere between 8-10 years of age there… Continue reading
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There’s Just No Blueprint By Joe S. Thomas
*** Somehow I have just now become hip to Mary Karr… Better late than never I always say… I’m reading her Memoir The Liars’ Club… I’m at the part where she is visiting her grandmother at the hospital who had to have her leg amputated due to some sort of Cancer… Of course, losing my… Continue reading
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Perhaps with Time and Understanding By Joe S. Thomas
The past several, maybe 5 or so years my rage has steadily been getting worse and my quality of life seems to just go even more downhill… I don’t know what I can do to truly make changes that need to be made because they involve money that I do not have and have no… Continue reading
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Sunday’s Usual Blues Song By Joe S. Thomas
*** The weekends aren’t getting any easier to deal with… My brother-in-law with whom I live brings his trashy, skank girlfriend around to spend the night and I can’t stand the sight or sound of her… He started dating this woman about two months or less, after my sister passed from a horrible battle with… Continue reading
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Chaos of Life By Joe S. Thomas
*** At this point in my existence, attempting to make sense of life and death is the hardest, most chaotic thing I’ve ever attempted to do… We have this chunk of time we are given to thrive or fail I suppose, to put it in terms that we can all relate to… Of course one… Continue reading