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Addiction, Cancer, Life & Death By Joe S. Thomas
*** I had one of my spastic, wake-up abruptly, panic moments the other day and something’s been on my mind since… It’s been hanging over me like a cloud that I can’t seem to shake… It’s been with me for a while honestly… There have been many crises within the crisis that is often what… Continue reading
death, Depression, Family, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthaddiction, anger, Cancer, death, Depression, Empathy, Family, feelings, guilt, insomnia, Life, Mental Health, pain, pain pills, rage, reaching out, Sympathy -
It Never Seems To Stop (Reliving Trauma) Part 2 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Before I go into the details of the mess from which I’m still attempting to rebuild my life, there’s something I feel I must say… I will never, ever trust a cop, ever… If my life and times have taught me one fact it’s that almost all cops are true liars and it’s not… Continue reading
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It Never Seems To Stop (Reliving Trauma) Part 1 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Tonight I found myself jerked awake by something… I can’t really tell you what, but it happens sometimes… I go from what seems like a dead sleep to being jerked awake by some sort of muscle twitching episode that leaves me wide awake and a bit frazzled mentally… Anyway, that’s what’s going on tonight… … Continue reading
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Tailor Made Pain and Hurt By Joe S. Thomas
*** Today I had a feeling that for some reason I really needed to reach out to my ex fiance’ and share with her a photo of my daughter’s new son… She’s always loved children and never had any of her own… We were together for over eleven years for those who aren’t familiar… Though… Continue reading
counterculture, death, Depression, disability, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, Neurodivergence, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthblame, Cancer, death, decisions, defeated, Depression, Empathy, ex’s, feelings, forgiveness, hurt, Life, lifetime, lonliness, love, pain, questioning, relationships, Sympathy, Time, unwanted, wasted time -
One of My Role Models By Joe S. Thomas
*** Again, unable to sleep tonight and listening to John Waters’ audiobook Role Models… It got me thinking of childhood and who I would consider the character I wanted to be, who I first saw and came to know about and then wanted to become through television… As a kid I religiously read Incredible Hulk… Continue reading
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The Necessity of Unplugging By Joe S. Thomas
If I’m being honest with myself, within myself and even with you, (those with whom I attempt to speak to or communicate with somehow), I must unplug from everything and leave my mind chock full of absolute emptiness if I’m to say anything interesting whatsoever… In my mind, the times I have something interesting to… Continue reading
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An Overstayed Welcome On This Planet By Joe S. Thomas
*** If I have a good day of writing, it generally means that I’ve had a shitty day mentally… Let’s just say I kicked out a pretty good poem today and I still don’t feel like stopping… I’m tired, frustrated and pissed off that I have to pay rent to an asshole who doesn’t give… Continue reading
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Cubby/Hubert Selby Jr. By Joe S. Thomas
I don’t recall when I first became a fan of Hubert Selby Jr… It’s been many years now… I’m fairly certain I have Henry Rollins to thank for it, so, thank you Henry, sincerely… I was listening to the Henry and Heidi podcast out of boredom and insomnia tonight… I’ve listened to each of the… Continue reading
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Into the Void By Joe S. Thomas
*** It made me sick when I heard those words come out of his mouth… The words my sister’s widower spoke to the hideous thing still cuddled up nice and warm in the exact spot my sister took her last breath and passed over into death and whatever that entails… I love you… These were… Continue reading
death, Depression, disability, Family, Journaling, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, Neurodivergence, nonfiction, questions, rage, therapy, truth, writinganger, Cancer, death, Depression, Empathy, Family, feelings, home, Life, love, mastectomy, Mental Health, pain, shame, writing -
Starts, Stops and Depression By Joe S. Thomas
*** I’ve had a few starts and stops on the unfortunate and very true story I’d like to tell about how I ended up here where I’m having to live now and why I can’t seem to get away… The manic episode, the arrests due to said manic episode, the beating that left me with… Continue reading