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Addiction, Cancer, Life & Death By Joe S. Thomas
*** I had one of my spastic, wake-up abruptly, panic moments the other day and something’s been on my mind since… It’s been hanging over me like a cloud that I can’t seem to shake… It’s been with me for a while honestly… There have been many crises within the crisis that is often what… Continue reading
death, Depression, Family, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthaddiction, anger, Cancer, death, Depression, Empathy, Family, feelings, guilt, insomnia, Life, Mental Health, pain, pain pills, rage, reaching out, Sympathy -
Tailor Made Pain and Hurt By Joe S. Thomas
*** Today I had a feeling that for some reason I really needed to reach out to my ex fiance’ and share with her a photo of my daughter’s new son… She’s always loved children and never had any of her own… We were together for over eleven years for those who aren’t familiar… Though… Continue reading
counterculture, death, Depression, disability, friendship, Life, Loss, love, Mental Health, Neurodivergence, nonfiction, questions, rage, truthblame, Cancer, death, decisions, defeated, Depression, Empathy, ex’s, feelings, forgiveness, hurt, Life, lifetime, lonliness, love, pain, questioning, relationships, Sympathy, Time, unwanted, wasted time -
Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Agoraphobia Part 2 By Joe S. Thomas
*** Continued-After many attempts and many hundreds of dollars lost, I finally made the emergency room doctors understand that I was having a legitimate problem and that I wasn’t faking for some sort of attention or wasn’t a drug seeker… At the time I didn’t know what a drug seeker even happened to be… This… Continue reading
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First Time Drinkers By Joe S. Thomas
*** On the days that I really fight the depression that often overwhelms me I find myself thinking a lot about when I started drinking and drugging, why I did so and how it has affected my life… I’m still no goody 2 shoes and I’m not cool with anyone telling me how to live… Continue reading
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Cubby/Hubert Selby Jr. By Joe S. Thomas
I don’t recall when I first became a fan of Hubert Selby Jr… It’s been many years now… I’m fairly certain I have Henry Rollins to thank for it, so, thank you Henry, sincerely… I was listening to the Henry and Heidi podcast out of boredom and insomnia tonight… I’ve listened to each of the… Continue reading
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Not a Very Good Time By Joe S. Thomas
*** More of my good friend and the evil bastard insomnia visiting me tonight after hearing the morons I have to live among wrenching doors open and digging through the kitchen like 400 pound cockroaches at 2 A.M… And people wonder why I hate, why I’m suicidal… Do you really have to think that hard… Continue reading
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Finishing “Molly” By Joe S. Thomas
*** I finished the book Molly today… You could tell as it neared the end Blake wanted to keep on writing about his experiences with her and I honestly can’t blame him… There really is something about poking those fresh wounds, maybe even more so when you know you absolutely have to let them come… Continue reading
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Reading “Molly” By Joe S. Thomas
*** I’m reading a book that’s breaking my heart… It’s also making me relate wholeheartedly to a beautiful person that chose to take her life… The book is : Molly. It was written by her husband Blake Butler… My heart does go out to him, yet my heart goes out even more so to Molly… Continue reading